Of making the most of opportunities

It’s strange how so much can change in just over a week.

Last week, I saw an advertisement for what seemed like an exciting opportunity. It was the day of the deadline.

I’m usually the type of person to mull over things, assess pros and cons, do as much research as I possibly can, before I make a decision. For once though… I was slightly spontaneous. Slightly, because I still  did do a little research but for me at least, this was spontaneous.

As soon as I sent of the application though, my stomach began to churn.

I’m a stickler for details an I didn’t know exactly what I had just applied for me. What if it was something completely outside of my comfort zone? What if it was too tiring to take on another thing? What if…what if...

The ‘what ifs’ swam around my mind until I concluded, that actually I was being quite egotistical.

What even made me think I would be chosen?

Seriously, I had impulsively applied – I had rushed the application in a mad excitement – surely, I wouldn’t get it.

So it was fine.

I could stay in my comfort zone. All was well.

But then by the next morning I thought, but no, I really want this.

Only for a couple of hours later to think; no, I don’t, I would be terrible at this. 

Basically, my mind was in an argument with itself.

And then somehow I got called for an interview.

And my brain, heart and stomach went into turmoil. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to be successful or not. Actually, I think that deep down I knew that I did want to be successful but the doubts about whether I would actually be able to, made all that passion to succeed hide away.

I had to take a couple of hours of work for this interview. How stupid, I told myself. Taking time out for something that would never lead anywhere.

But you have to try, another part of me was saying, you can’t not.

So the day came.

And it didn’t start of well.

I missed my bus.

So I had to walk.

I was already late so I assumed I wouldn’t get there in time.

Then when I got to the area where I was supposed to be, I realised I didn’t know where the building was.

I also realised my hijab was slowly unravelling. I’d lost a pin on the way.

The button on my blazer had broken off.

I felt a mess.

But when I looked up, I found that the building was right in front of me. I looked at the time and somehow I was ten minutes early.

Suddenly, I became resolved to do the best I could at the interview.

And I did – and I was selected.

Initially, when I found out I was selected I was… happy, excited, amazed before the self-doubt began to plague in – you won’t manage this, you can’t do this, it’s not for people like you. 

Those thoughts overtook my mind.

Luckily, though I managed to (mostly) squash them down.

A couple of days later and I was already beginning this new project. And it was amazing. I can’t put into words how happy I am that I applied. I met great like-minded people, I’ve already learnt so much and I know I will continue to do so.

There’s definitely going to be parts of this job that I know I will struggle with. That will force me out of my comfort zone but actually, I’m…looking forward to it. I want to be challenged and I want to be pushed into improving my skills. Sometimes of course, that enemy of mine, self-doubt, reappears and question why I was chosen. I shouldn’t have been, right? But more and more, I’m squashing those negative emotions down. I’m going to make the absolute most of this opportunity.

That said, it’s not easy.

This past week I’ve worked over six days and well-over 40 hours. As a result, I am so, so exhausted.

This also explains why I haven’t been blogging as much and why I didn’t complete the quotes challenge. It’s about 4 days late I think but here’s my final quote:

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I know for a fact, that had I not applied for this opportunity, I would definitely have had regret.

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Thanks again Anjali for the Quotes Challenge nomination (I’m so sorry for the delay!).

My three final nominations are:

Faithmillie

The rules:
  1. For three consecutive days, you have to post a quote.
  2. Acknowledge the blogger who has nominated you.
  3. Each day you have to nominate three different bloggers.
  4. Let the bloggers know you have nominated them.

 

The Quote Challenge – Day 1

I’ve been nominated for this challenge by the lovely Anjali (thank you for nomination and thank you for always spreading positivity!). 

The rules:

  1. For three consecutive days, you have to post a quote.
  2. Acknowledge the blogger who has nominated you.
  3. Each day you have to nominate three different bloggers.
  4. Let the bloggers know you have nominated them.

Day 1

For to be free is not merely to cast off one’s chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others – Nelson Mandela

This quote serves as a reminder to me of the fact that firstly, there are number of people in this world:

  •  Who face oppression or discrimination based on their race, gender, religion etc.
  •  Whose freedom is restricted in other ways; the wife who is abused, the families who aren’t able to afford a meal; the individuals who don’t have access to an education…

And it reminds me that 1) I should make a conscious effort to check that I am not being unfairly stereotypical (it’s so easy to form subconscious bias!) – ensuring I always respect those are different to me and 2) that I should use the privileges I have to make whatever small difference I can to enhance the freedom of others.

But more than that it also shows me that those people who are oppressors, who are bigoted and refuse to respect the freedom of others, are actually prisoners of their own prejudice. They may proudly present their hatred for those who have a different religion, race etc.  but at the end of the day… they lose out. Because they’ll never see or understand what everyone else does. They won’t learn from other cultures. They won’t experience the beauty of making friends with people who are completely different to you. They won’t expand their mind, discuss and challenge views, agree to disagree.

In the end, they’re oppressing themselves.

I was lucky enough to grow up in a multicultural society; throughout school, University and work I have met people from all parts of the world, and I can confidently say I am a better person for having met them 🙂

Now for the nominations. I challenge the following three bloggers:

  1. Zora Zebic
  2. Emma
  3. Olive Ole

I look forward to reading your quotes!

Liebster Award!

I’ve been nominated for the Liebster Award by the lovely Zora Zebic -a truly amazing woman whose blog you should definitely check out! Thanks for nomination Zora 🙂

And also, a big thank you to anyone who follows, likes or leaves comments on this blog – I really appreciate all your support!

Anyway, without further ado, here are the rules of the Liebster Award:

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The eleven questions I was given were:

1. What is your best childhood memory?
2. What do you feel most proud of?
3. What is your favourite music?
4. What is your dream place and why?
5. What teacher in school made the most impact on you and why?
6. How do you spend your free time?
7. What are your top three favourite books and why?
8. What is your biggest fear?
9. What is your strongest personal quality?
10. If you could witness any event of past, present or future, what would it be?
11. What does a perfect day look like to you?

  1. The evening my dad managed to get us a really, really big bunch of balloons for free. I still don’t know how or why but I do remember sitting in the back of the car, not being able to see my cousin next to me (or anything really!) due to the very large amount of balloons. We got home and naturally had a jumping up and down on the bed with balloons party. I think I was around six / seven at the time.
  2. Hmm… this is a hard one. I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished anything I can really be proud of yet. I guess, I’m usually the person friends or family go to for advice / to rant at and that probably means they trust my opinion? Yeah, I think that’s probably something to be proud of. (Also, I read all the A Song of Ice and Fire books – that’s a lot of words! Definitely proud of that!).
  3. I love listening to Maher Zain – he sings songs about religion, life and family relationships. Mostly in English but also in Arabic, Urdu and Turkish.
  4. This one’s easy! Having a room with tall bookshelves, all reaching the ceiling and all made of beautiful mahogany wood. A fireplace. A large drawer filled with chocolates. A large comfy armchair, with a soft blanket for me to curl up in. Also, a window overlooking a mountain. (Future dreams!).
  5. My science teacher in my first year of high school. I’d always being inquisitive but she managed to bring out my passion for science. She also somehow made me believe I was actually good at it. Until then, I thought English was the only subject I would do well in.
  6. Reading and as of recently, writing again. I try to go for daily walks, usually with my mum. (I also probably spend a bit too much time watching TV and YouTube videos).
  7. Changes depending on my mood! Right now,  Tamar by Mal Peet (I read this years ago and its always stuck with me – a sign of a good book) and We Were Liars by E.Lockhart (the ending!!!); Harry Potter will always be my favorite series (I grew up with these books!).
  8. That when the time comes, I won’t know how to be a good mum.
  9. My determination – I don’t give up!
  10. No matter what the movies warn about seeing the future, it would be pretty cool to just check that I’m making the right choices right now.
  11. A crisp autumn day. Spending it with my family or friends – not even necessarily doing anything – just talking and enjoying each others company. But then being able to spend some time alone to recharge (introvert here). Also, chocolate and tea would make it perfect.

Eleven facts about me:

  1. I’m an only child
  2. I will always choose dessert over a main meal
  3. Unless the main meal is pasta
  4. I’m not very good with animals
  5. I plan on writing a novel
  6. I’ve always wanted to go on a hot air balloon
  7. I think Marvel movies are better than DC
  8. But DC TV shows do it better than Marvel
  9. I would rather be surrounded by mountains than at the beach
  10. I love solving problems / puzzles etc.
  11. The next country I want to visit is the country where my grandparents grew up (India)

The five people I nominate are:

  1. Anusha Narashiman
  2. Jhaneel Lockhart
  3. Sarah Wesson
  4. Aena Zoraya
  5. Weaving Notions

And your questions are:

  1. What is your best childhood memory?
    2. What do you feel most proud of?
    3. If you could only have one snack / dessert what would it be and why?
    4. What motivated you to start your blog?
    5. What teacher in school made the most impact on you and why?
    6. How do you spend your free time?
    7. What are your top three favourite books and why?
    8. What is your biggest fear?
    9. What is your strongest personal quality?
    10. If there was one thing you could tell your 15 year old self what would it be?
    11. What does a perfect day look like to you?

I look forward to reading your responses!